Tuesday, October 31, 2006

One Day
















An unknown (by me) galaxy. Courtesy of NASA images. I love NASA. hahah

One day I wish I can afford the equipment to capture my own images. Maybe not as nice as these from the Hubble space telescope, but nice enough.

One day...

Humble man called Moses

Moses was someone whom God spoke to face-to-face. Can anybody imagine what that means? I figured it like this: I have noticed that in the many accounts written by Moses regarding the journey to the Promised Land, God descended from the pillar of smoke and appeared before Moses so many times. Its as if God was just someone who got off a plane and you see step out of the sliding doors at the airport; He appears and you can physically greet and welcome Him. Moses had that type of relationship with God and I really admire that sort of intimacy with our Maker.

But the most amazing part of Moses's relationship with God is not just that they saw each other in the face, but that God was even willing to defend him in he face of accusation and opposition, even from other "Godly" men. Numbers 12 showed a particular episode where Moses found himself accused of having a foreign 'exotic' wife from Ethiopia by Aaron and Miriam. God actually went out of the way to call all three persons into His presence at the Tabernacle, where He once again descended in a cloud of smoke. God spoke out against Aaron and Miriam, in a statement that continues to baffle and amaze me since when I first read it some time ago. Can you imagine? You are been accused of an act, which the highest authority in all of existence has no problem with, and the highest authority actually stoops down to become your advocate!

Here is what He actually says:
"Hear now My words:
If there is a prophet among you,
I, the Lord, make Myself known
to him in a vision;
I speak to him in a dream.
Not so with My servant Moses;
He is faithful in all My House.
I speak with him face to face,
Even plainly, and not in dark sayings;
And he sees the form of the Lord.
Why then were you not afraid
To speak against My servant Moses?"

Wouldn't anyone want to have this type of advocate when they are faced with a problem? I know I would. What made God so favor Moses? Well, as WH shared to me yesterday, the answer was in the same chapter: verse 3. Moses was the most humble man in all the world. I remember John Bevere once said also that humility is one of the factors in maintaining an intimate relationship with God.

But notice that this verse was in Numbers... and for those who know a bit about the background of this book, something very strange immediately comes to mind. Didn't Moses himself wrote the book? Why is he writing that he was humble? Isn't that like a paradox? At first I thought it was too. Until I considered what humility really is.

So what is humility? Its not putting yourself down, but putting yourself where you really belong in God. Why, Moses wasn't humble just because he said it in his book, it is actually because of his actions. What he wrote in Numbers was just the truth.Its not about playing down the gifts that God has given us, but knowing where we really are despite those gifts. Its about knowing where we are with God: we are His servant, to be faithful in His House. We are nothing without God. To understand and to live like this is the sign of a person with true humility.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

HOW TO IMPRESS A WOMAN

Compliment her,
cuddle her,
kiss her,
caress her,
love her,
stroke her,
tease her,
comfort her,
protect her,
hug her,
hold her,
spend money on her,
wine & dine her,
buy things for her,
listen to her,
care for her,
stand by her,
support her,
go to the ends of the earth for her....

HOW TO IMPRESS A MAN
Show up naked. .... with Beer

Disclaimer: I do not endorse this type of behaviour, esp. prior to marriage.

Here's ONE reason not to yell at your wife.

A guy and his wife were speeding down the interstate when a state cop pulls him over.
The man says, "What's the problem officer?
Officer: "You were going at least 75 in a 55 zone."
Man: "No sir, I was going 65."
Wife: "Oh Harry, you were going 80." Man gives his wife a dirty look.
Officer: "I will also give you a ticket for your broken tail light."
Man: "Broken tail light? I didn't know about a broken tail light"
Wife: "Oh Harry, you've known about that tail light for months." Man gives his wife a dirty look. Officer: "I will also give you a citation for not wearing your seat belt."
Man: "Oh, I just took it off when you were walking up to the car."
Wife: "Oh Harry, you never wear your seat belt."
Man turns to his wife and yells, "Bitch, shut your damn mouth"
The Officer turns to the woman and says, "Ma'm,does your husband talk to you this way all the time??
Wife says, "No, only when he's drunk."

Bloooggggiiiiiiinnnnnnnnggggggggg

Its times like these that begs for some sort of creative outlet, times like these where ideas buzz around my head, yet nothing seems to make sense, and in the end nothing is written. So I am resigned to just sit here in my nice office seat at work, doing nothing but waiting for the next phone call, and vegetate. I could almost feel extensions of root stalks creep around my limbs and torso, locking me into place on my seat, just as roots dig into the soil and lock a tree onto solid ground. I feel like a dead weight of a thousand years is upon my shoulders as I sit here and wait. My eyes no longer wander about the room, but now fixated at the pulsating screen even as these words are typed out by the only part of my body that's still moving: my fingers. I tried to wiggle my toes a bit, but it will not respond. Am I conscious? Unconscious? Dead perhaps? I knew not, and I cared not; only the continual staring and the mindless taping of my fingers upon this keyboard seems to matter right at this moment.

Suddenly a flash on the screen robbed me of my inner musings. I was transported back into the real world; I've got a MSN message:

m:
hey justin
m:
you not at work ah?

I stared at the pop-up with wide-eyed bewilderment, as if this most routine occurence had never occurred to me before. My mind was still easing out of deep cryo-sleep, the stalks slowly retreating back from whence they came. My body came back alive; I was not a vegetable anymore, a human once again.

j: haha no i am, just not at wishlist today...

Monday, October 23, 2006

Farewell

A great man has left in the wee hours of today. It is both a sad, but at the same time an exciting and joyous time, for now he goes on a great new Fantastic Adventure In Trusting Him. He has indeed touched many lives during his time here, and I am sure he will go on to touch even more back home. His time with us here may have come to an end, but God's time for him has just begun. Don't look back brother, don't ever feel regret. Remember us, but don't let us tie you back from the greater things that God has called you to. May God always be before you, and that you trust in His strength. God bless you and your family, bro. See ya.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

7 steps to making love with your wife

Step One: Tell her she got beautiful eyes.
Step Two: Tell her you love her.
Step Three: Switch off lights.
Step Four: Cannot see, put on torchlight...

Not my original work, and DEFINITELY not the way I would go about it!!!

Intimacy

"As long as you have the idea that God will always bless you in answer to prayer, He will do it, but He will never give you the grace of His silence. If Jesus Christ is bringing you into the understanding that prayer is for the glorifying of His Father, then He will give you the first sign of His intimacy— silence."

Wow

I never really thought that getting the silent treatment is a step into intimacy with Him, but when I think about it, it indeed is. Think of our own friendships. The best and closest friends can go hours without speaking, and just be with each other such is their intimacy. Think of the dear old couple who only speaks a few words in the evening during dinner time; it is not because they are ignoring each other, living with each other out of convenience, its because there is no need for an exchange of verbal communication. If silence can mean thus in our earthly relationships, then so much more our Heavenly relationship with our Maker!

My goodness, His silence is one of joy and one of reassurance, despite what the Enemy will say about these times when I seem to get nothing from prayer, no powerful moment of ministry, not a single word of instruction or encouragement. Why, when God is silent, He is showing He has already heard me! This has been my revelation for this morning, and what a morning, what a revelation!

Your name is like honey on my lips
Your Spirit like water to my soul
Your Word is a lamp unto my feet
Jesus I love you.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Thursday, October 05, 2006

In Da 'Ouse

Aiiieeee, welcomez to de ouse wherez wez za gonna play Jason Mraz and Dashboard 'hile wez talk 'ike 'his maan.

Yup, I have totally completely positively absolutely lost my mind. Must be Borat from last night.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Fly me to the moon

Hmm, thinking back, I am not sure when was the last time I had an event at my place that was about as big as the one tonight (or last night). A nice barbeque in the evening under the moonlight, coupled with some jamming and playing boardgames... it was a pleasantly entertaining night.

I think I could do with a few more functions like this at my place soon... heh, fly me to the moon anytime man...

Monday, September 25, 2006

Prophecies?

Since I got nothing else better to do for the night, I decided to do the age-old time-honoured tradition of bloggers all over the world:

Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if they don't make sense. You'll be surprised though.. NO CHEATING!

How are you feeling today?
I Cry - Trick Daddy ft. Ron Isley
(hmm, quite right for like two seconds today...thankfully)

Will you get far in life?
Knocking on Heavens Door - Bob Dylan
(Wow, I like that =P)

How do your friends see you?
Still Standing - Israel Houghton & New Breed
(Err... that's cool I guess)

Will you get married?
Only Hope - Mandy Moore
(Oh man... you can't be serious?!)

What is your best friend's theme song?
Worlds Apart - Jars of Clay
(Speechless)

What is the story of your life?
Salvation is Here - Hillsongs Australia
(Brilliant! That is THE story of my life!)

What was high school like?
Song of the Broken - Something Like Silas
(On the spot as well... Is this a prophetic tool? If it is I have cause for concern...see above)

How can you get ahead in life?
Turn - Travis
(It's that easy?)

What is the best thing about your friends?
Love Child - Diana Ross
(Hmm, I am not sure I like the sound of that...)

What is today going to be like?
Not Pretty Enough - Kasey Chambers
(Better suit up better then...)

What is in store for this weekend?
Journey - Corrinne May
(Oh heck, not another one...)

What song describes you?
Shy Boy - Katie Melua
(Me? Shy? That's like yonks ago man...)

To describe your grandparents?
Divine Invitation - Something Like Silas
(Hmm... an invitation to evangelise?)

How is your life going?
Lost In Space - Lighthouse Family
(HAHA... email)

What song will they play at your funeral?
Open Up The Gates - Planetshakers
(Woot! I am going home baby!)

How does the world see you?
Not Forgotten - Israel Houghton & New Breed
(Hmm, I am glad... sort of)

Will you have a happy life?
Lifesong - Casting Crowns
(Is that an answer? A song about what I wonder...)

What do your friends really think of you?
Thankful - Caedmon's Call
(Heh heh heh)

Do people secretly lust after you?
Lift Up Your Eyes - Planetshakers
(Well I shall take that as YES)

How can I make myself happy?
I Do It For You - Bryan Adams
(You will? You will?)

What should you do with your life?
There Are Worse Things I Could Do - Lesley Gore
(Oh shoot, really ah?)

Will you ever have children?
Tomorrow - Bebe & Cece Winans
(Eh... I am just not too sure if that's a good idea...)

A little something from My Utmost...

Our Lord’s teaching can be summed up in this: the relationship that He demands for us is an impossible one unless He has done a super-natural work in us. Jesus Christ demands that His disciple does not allow even the slightest trace of resentment in his heart when faced with tyranny and injustice. No amount of enthusiasm will ever stand up to the strain that Jesus Christ will put upon His servant. Only one thing will bear the strain, and that is a personal relationship with Jesus Christ Himself— a relationship that has been examined, purified, and tested until only one purpose remains and I can truly say, "I am here for God to send me where He will." Everything else may become blurred, but this relationship with Jesus Christ must never be.

The Sermon on the Mount is not some unattainable goal; it is a statement of what will happen in me when Jesus Christ has changed my nature by putting His own nature in me. Jesus Christ is the only One who can fulfill the Sermon on the Mount.

If we are to be disciples of Jesus, we must be made disciples supernaturally. And as long as we consciously maintain the determined purpose to be His disciples, we can be sure that we are not disciples. Jesus says, "You did not choose Me, but I chose you. . ." ( John 15:16 ). That is the way the grace of God begins. It is a constraint we can never escape; we can disobey it, but we can never start it or produce it ourselves. We are drawn to God by a work of His supernatural grace, and we can never trace back to find where the work began. Our Lord’s making of a disciple is supernatural. He does not build on any natural capacity of ours at all. God does not ask us to do the things that are naturally easy for us— He only asks us to do the things that we are perfectly fit to do through His grace, and that is where the cross we must bear will always come.

Of preachers, ramblers and poems

Haha lately I seem to have rambled alot and preached alot on this blog... sorry for overloading, and for generally not making sense! =)

But I think bloging is therapeutic for me. It sets my mind at ease, giving me a break from just musing and daydreaming all these things in my head, and allowing me to just pour it all out so I don't have to think about it over and over. If someone asked me to blog a year ago I would have laughed at the absurdity: I am no writer. Yet now I surprise myself sometimes. Please don't take me as being one of the self-praising types, for if someone were to say to me I am good at writing, I would still say no, and thats the truth. I never really felt I can write. I still don't. I guess the point of all this rambling is that maybe all of this is the big HS doing His work in me. Maybe that's why its therapeutic...

Haven't written a poem in ages. Lately I just don't have the time, nor the muse for it. I want to exercise that muscle for a long time, lest I lose it like I lost drawing. Hmm... maybe one now for the road? Right here, right now, no scripts, no pre-planning, no idea what it will be about, no idea where its gonna go, but let's just take it as it comes and see where we end up...

There once was a boy
With a nose for picking toys
That fills his life with laughter.
He went to his sacred store
Where he found his favorite toy.
A big yellow roadster,
Full of pride, flashy bluster.

He hurriedly went in
To take it for a spin,
Not caring for the ropes and pins
That held it securedly in
Its own little box.
Round the block he goes,
The aisles all he knows.
'Til a man caught him by the collar
And brought him back to his mother.

She asks him where he's being
And tells him what trouble he's in,
Opening the box of a toy car
Not paying for it but playing
And making a mess of things!
Rightttt Justin. Something you have done perhaps?

Choices choices choices...

Sometimes, the number of choices is so many, I just don't know where to start deciding. I want a career. I want to study. I want to make lots of friends all over the places. I want to invest in particular friendships. I want to live for God. I want to make money. I want to move out. I want an apartment. I want to support my family. I want to be there for them. I want to leave everything behind and just wander. I want to backpack Europe. I want to traverse the Sahara. I want to design interiors. I want to write a comic. I want to sail the seven seas. I want to fight the good fight. I want... why is there so many wants, so many aspirations, so many things that I could have done yet didn't, so many choices...?

All this choice, yet so little time. I am tired.

Living can be so hard. Lately I see life as somewhat comparable to standing at multiple crossroads, with pathways leading off in all directions, yet never getting anywhere. We live in a world so full of choice that it sometimes seems like there is really no choice at all. What is the difference between choosing to go down the path of a psychologist or a lawyer? Is there any real meaning in deciding what mobile network I choose to go with? Is there a fundamental difference in the choice of friends with whom I hang out with? So I am left with nothing; all choices seems meaningless to me, just as Solomon had concluded in writing his book. So all that's left is God. God is the only one who has meaning, who can give me meaning. Yet why do I still feel this way, despite believing in Him? Why do I still feel so directionless, overwhelmed by the big bad world of non-choices?

The answer probably lies in how well do I know God. If I do not obey Him, I shall never intimately know Him. If I do not walk with Him as the Apostles did, and obey His commands, I shall never be a true friend of Him (John 15:14). And when I am counted as His friend, oh what a frightful delight that would be! For God lets those who He call friend in on His plans, and even involves them in His decision-making! Look at Abraham, look at Moses!

I strive for that. I want to know God; I need to know Him. I want to obey God; I need to obey Him. For without Him, all things are meaningless.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Kara ok?

I'm more than a bird,
I'm more than a plane,
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train...

Ahh, its nice to just sing your heart out with a bunch of fellow cell members and friends while sipping not-so-honey lemon honey. Cheerios to all who were there, and also to all who could've been but weren't... we did miss you... and I am sorry to say, YOU MISSED OUT! haha...

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Potential

There is something wonderful in the way God sees me. To Him, He sees much more than what I can see. He does not see the pitfalls, the darkness, the would-be sins that I see; for He has already forgiven, forgotten, and wiped it all clean. He sees who I am as if sin had never laid a finger on me, and I stand righteous by the blood of Jesus Christ before Him.

At least that is what I am told. At least it is biblical.

But it is so hard a reality to swallow. Sometimes.

No 'us' in Salvation

Lets refocus... God did not save us coz we were pitiful, nor did He save us coz we asked/demanded it, nor did He save us coz we were deserving, nor did He save us coz we were His creations. Notice all of the above statements had the word 'we' in it. He did not even save us because He loves 'us'....

He saved us simply because He loves His creations. There is no 'we' or 'us' in His reason. It is just His character to love, and we were fortunate enough to have been created special for He had said of us as "very good" instead of just "good", for Him to want to save us. Get with the program, we are not the focus.

It really is a humbling experience.

White As Snow

I am sick of unrighteous anger; I am sick of retribution; I am sick of self-righteousness; I am sick of pride; I am sick of condemnation; I am sick of unforgiveness; I am sick of blame; I am sick of the past; I am sick of pessimism; I am sick of greed; I am sick of money; I am sick of...

Sometimes, life just gets so sickening...
Isaiah 1: 6 says:
From the sole of the foot even unto the head,
there is no soundness in it,
but wounds and bruises and putrefrying sores;
they have not been closed or bound up,
or soothed with ointment.
This is the life of the unredeemed. This is what the world has to offer. This is the price of sin. I believe that the wages of sin is worse than death. Yet why do I sin, why do I continue to turn away, and slide back into the world? I condemn the world, hate its Godlessness, yet I myself is no different, no better. Who am I to say such things? I cannot judge for I myself is to be judged. I fall and fall; there seems to be no end in my self-condemnation.

At times, I fall so far back into the darkness that I even forget about what God has already done.

Isaiah reminded me.
Come now, and let us reason together,
says the Lord,
Though your sins are like scarlet,
They shall be as white as snow;
Though they are red like crimson,
They shall be as wool.
(Is. 1: 18)

No matter how far down I go, as long as my heart still yearns for God, as long as I confess and repent my sins before Him, as long as I go back to the Cross and accept Jesus as my Lord and Saviour, those sins will be wiped clean, and I shall be white as snow, be as wool.

Praise be to God for He is Good. All the time.

Monday, September 18, 2006

Of passionate fear

I have once found a passion that knews no bounds. It was something of a gift, something of a innate talent that I was fortunate to be blessed with. I took pride in it. It was the gift of drawing.

I have once another passion that knew no bounds. It was something that could have been more. It ruled my mind, and held captive my heart. It was a love/infatuation/relationship that never gotten anywhere.

I have once another passion that knew no bounds. It was something of a focus that drove my life. It came like a bad rash, and is now fading away with the passage of time. I thought it could have lasted forever. It was my academic foray into psychology.

I have one passion now that had known no bounds. It was something of an accident, something of a pre-ordained destiny. It gave me my freedom, it gave me hope, it gave me strength, and it gave me a renewed outlook on life. I think it might last forever as well. It was my encounter with God.

Despite these passions, I have never really done anything in its hot pursuit, to attain it. I have neglected and went to opposite direction from drawing, to the point where I have now lost the gift that was given to me. I have been inert in my affections, and now its too late and there is no turning back. I had spent the last three years moving along through my course, and had never really pursued it with what you would call passion; now it no longer crosses my mind, and attaining honours seems so far away. Would you call these things passions if I do not actively pursue it?

There is a fear within me that my 'passion' for God may be of the same caliber as these other things. Is it truly one of my biggest passions to know and love God? What if it becomes just another 'passion' that fades away, or left neglected is lost forever? Sometimes, I truly hate myself for wanting something badly, yet being so indifferent to it in my actions. I know God is forever, God is eternal, God's love will always be the same. Yet I know my own, and I know that I am not forever, not eternal, and neither is my love; that a day comes when it will all become insignificant again, just as it was with everything else I call my passions. Can I sense the coming of this day just around the corner? Do I feel the strain today? I feel its oppressive presense everyday, a fear that just won't go away.

I hope that day will never come, when my love for God shall fail, and my faith crumbles beneath my own iniquities. I would rather die before that day if it must come. The thought is one of my greatest fears.